'1'

if you're not the one, leave. right. now.

I know you're getting tired of hearing me say that.

(And frankly I am getting tired of saying it ever so often myself!)

But I did.

Again.

I met 4 guys prior to the weekend I left Beijing.

Three of them asked me out the week I was to fly back home.

I even had dinner with one.

And he walked me home and wanted to take me back to my apartment.

I stopped him halfway, hailed him a cab and sent him home.

(I paid for the dinner as well.)

I will never see him again.

The other guy messaged me as I was heading out the door.

Wanted to play pool with me.

Told him raincheck.

I am ...hmmm... uninterested as well.

So!

Definitely-- it's not him and him.

Those 2 are not 'the 1!'

I have met some guys since being back home.

One of whom (#3) is getting married.

He calls everyday and is in touch.

But I don't want to tie myself to someone who's tied to someone else.

Why would I want 1/2 when I can have 1?

Right?

And despite my loneliness, it IS a big ocean.

So not him.

Once again.

Number 3 is not the '1.'

Another guy I met over the weekend whilst having a nightcap with friends.

Came to our table introduced himself and asked to join us.

We chatted about work and football.

Then proceeded to Opus and danced the night away.

Then he invited me back to his place.

I politely declined and thanked him for a nice evening.

He emailed me yesterday and wanted to stay in touch.

Is guy number 4 the '1?'

So I keep meeting men.

And they seem to like me back.

Or so it seems.

And yet for all love's intents and purposes...

I am a lone one.

And I've been for awhile now.

I may meet a lot but clearly I have no '1.'