As I sit here inside a cafe finishing my presentation for tomorrow, I can't help but let my thoughts fly to the HUMONGOUS boggle that's been rub-a-bugging me the past couple of days.
Happy ever after... seems have become a dirty word.
Nobody seems to want it (much less remember what it means).
Over lunch today with my friend C., we spoke of how it is quickly becoming a losing battle.
Nonetheless I am baffled by the state of what a loveless world it's becoming.
Did everyone get a 'bad romance is IN' memo whilst I was still caught up in the belief of falling in love with the one person that would come to mean to you what no one else will?
Why does it seem that people have lost their belief in true love??
The way people talk about it. Like this expendable thing you can refund and disburse one month after. Change, like your undies. It seems to be the rage now. Casual seems to be catching. A-choo!
Yet, as I sit here, I wonder why the hell I'm on earth, the state nagging at my unusually impenetrable resolve, I take deep breaths and continue to sit it out and wait for a knight that appears to have lost his way to me.
And while I patiently ward off a truckload of testosteone-tripped attentionistas...I still sit here, patiently waiting. Seated solo, a singletoot by choice looking for that perfect partner who will make all this waiting time worth my while.
I simply cannot find myself saying yes to casual and convenient. Anything less than the best will not merit a response from me. Is it it hopeless idealism? A foolish flight of fancy? Remnants of a pipe dream carried over from all those fairy tales I had read in my long gone childhood?
I told C. how I am losing hope.
How I am beginning to feel more and more that I am alone in this belief.
C. told me today, "My God, you're such a rare gem. I am a woman and I see how real and how infectious your personality is. The man for you just has to dig deep enough to find you. Wait for him S. Wait it out. Give him the chance. Let him find you. Allow him to find you. You're a rare find." Am I really???
Hmmm...is it time to let go and declare myself en masse?
Where are you kind sir and what the hell is taking you so long to catch up????
Yes I run, I know...but I do slow down too. And I will be patiently waiting.
Come to my window and don't just stay awhile.
Stay.
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